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This is the third part of the $1,500 (formerly $3,000) project. You can see the 1st/2nd parts here: $1,500, $1,500 (Part 2)


  • Official deadline is December 25th, 2020; only exception is the winter musicals that typically end in January. Of course any money earned after that will still be counted.

January 2020

January 1, 2020

Hi heccers it's a new decade. And year. And month. And day. Whatever. :') Watch me write 2019 at least 8847872 times before getting used to writing 2020. Double 20, huh? Too bad I won't be around to see the next time this'll happen, 2121.

I have to go back to school tomorrow (reee exams) but since it's January, you know what that means...grinding the surveys. grind...grind...grind...ahjvjkgjkck.

Anyways, it's almost Álvaro's birthday so I'm going to make a present for him. Maybe I'll give it to him someday. Maybe I won't. nonono of course i will lol i love how much he makes my tit(tie)s quake and my ovaries scream with that june 2019 photo posted on his instagram because for some reason my body does not understand that he cannot be the father of a child i cannot have and he cannot be the man to carry on the population of the homo sapiens with me and

You know, over the years, I've had some songs that remind me of certain moments in time and it's interesting to see how different they feel from each other, y'know? I go on and listen to all of these songs when the time of year comes again and New Years is one of those times.

2018: A Picture to Remember; breakthrough new artist was Sofia. (i mean she wasn't until February but idrc)

2019: Why; breakthrough new artist was Shawn. (again Why wasn't until February, also I had a huge music boom from January-May so it's kinda hard to pinpoint one song)

2020: don't know yet. gonna guess Living Proof, new breakthrough artist Camila, but we'll see. i never get that "feeling" of a time from a song until after it's over. I want to have another music boom, looking at more Shawn, more Camila, more Avril, more Ed, more more more. it was fun last year. i miss those days. but next year i'll be missing THESE days. gosh why am i like this it's so fucking tiring.

Anyways this post contributed nothing to the project really but that's fine. fine fine fine. I don't have any news yet anyway.

Until next time. (gosh how i've missed writing that) - 2023zhanl38

(p.s. soon I won't be 2023zhanl38 anymore, I'll be Audeamxus. that's happening as soon as the new membership bundle comes out so i can buy a one month membership and use play wild sapphires to buy the rest because yknow i gotta get those images for the wiki. still feel free to call me 2023 or zhanl or zhan or crazysolerina101 or whatever the hell you want honestly because at this point i don't care anymore. i really don't dont dont dont dont wow what am i even doing no i dont.)

$617.77 (i think) saved; $600 aside. $883.23 to go.

January 12, 2020

Frozen Jr. is over now. But I'm not ready to let it go. :')

So I got the Survey Junkie $20.04. Also, -$6.95 for the one-month membership; I won't buy any more after that, I'll just use sapphires to buy more.

I'm not doing One Act this year, but I'm trying out for the spring musical, which starts March 7th. Yay, I get a whole month to myself now. I've almost forgotten what that feels like.

Also, since the winter musical is over now, there's some cash coming in. Lemme see how much I got from the rehearsals. $5 for the audition; $1.50 for each 3-hour day (we started on November 5); $2.50 for each 5-hour day; $2 for each weekend rehearsal; $5 for each show. I'll assume we had 38 3-hour rehearsals, 6 5-hour rehearsals, and 5 weekend rehearsals. We had four shows. Add that all together and that's... exactly $107. brrruuuhhhh give that to me.

Finally counting out the Nov/Dec stickers, I earned $4 for November, $3.10 for December, making another $7.10 in total. huh, not bad for the stickers, really.

I can't really work on surveys recently because I'm so busy with drama and homework, but now that drama is out of the way and finals are this week, I might actually be able to focus for the first time in forever. (no frozen reference intended) Finals are Wednesday and Thursday; there's KT both days, but it won't be much help because all assignments are due on Tuesday.

Anyways, I'll see you next time.

$630.86 saved; $600 (my parents haven't put the money in yet) aside. $869.14 to go.

January 14, 2020

wip wop, change in plans.

I said I wasn't gonna do One Act because I thought it was for advanced kids (which I'm not, by the way) but apparently it's for everyone and most of my "friends" are auditioning. The shows are student directed so there's not much "advanced" to it... (shrugs)

I figure I can fetch up another $80 if I get in? Auditions are tomorrow. Haha I was actually looking forward to a month for myself but it's fine, I wanna do this anyway. :')

By the way, correction from the last post... finals are not this week. They're next week. I was just so caught up in my own shit that I thought they were this week. Thank God not. Still falling hecking behind on surveys so I'll just set a goal of $100 on iPoll and $25 on Qmee by the end of the school year, another iPoll $70 and $7 Qmee by the beginning of my sophomore year, and another iPoll $25 and $5 Qmee by the end of 2020. I'm taking 3 fucking AP classes my sophomore year so frick the surveys then. And chamber orchestra. And quiz bowl. Actually no, I like quiz bowl. Let's keep that.

Anyways, no more time can be wasted. I have things to do.

$630.86 saved; $600 (my parents haven't put the money in yet) aside. $869.14 to go.

January 15, 2020

hi I'm halfway at my goal now. my mom just gave me the money for Frozen Jr. and the Nov/Dec stickers, but she bumped it up to $120 as a bonus. :)

Yeah, this is a pretty short entry, so to make it longer, I'm gonna drabble a bit about the rest of my plans for this "era" (January-February 2020), which I'm calling the One Act era (I might change it if I don't get into any of the shows though) and also what happened during the audition today because no these pages are not only for earning $1,500 now, also for talking about my life.

(again this isn't a definite plan since I have no idea if I've even gotten into any of the shows yet and yes, there are multiple. If I don't get in, I'm resuming my "old" plan of grinding the surveys)

Since I originally planned not to do One Act, I'm changing things. This is basically just a more detailed plan of the stuff I posted yesterday, with some minor changes.

Here's what I'm planning to do:

By February 29, 2020 (yay leap day, also the last show of One Act is supposedly on the 27th);

  • $30 on iPoll
  • $7 on Qmee

Zooming out, here's what I'm planning by May 29 (when I turn 15; the goal was originally supposed to be June 4, which is the end of the school year, but same with the Christmas thing, I'm going to redeem everything I have on that day);

  • $70 on iPoll
  • $20 on Qmee
  • $50 from Make Money

By September 1, 2020 (idk when we start school, a few days later than that)

  • $120 on iPoll
  • $40 on Qmee
  • $70 from Make Money

And...that's it for my general goals. I'm still going to figure out how far I want to get by the end of 2020, but I'll decide that by June 4.

So, how did the audition for One Act go today?

It went better than my auditions for Bye Bye Birdie and Frozen Jr., at least. We were allowed to sing a song that WE prepare (BAHAHAHAHA FINALLY I CAN SING A PIECE OF SHIT IN MY RANGE NO FUCKING D5s OR C5s OR EVEN B4s FOR ME LOLLOLOOLLLOLOL), though maybe they should have actually told us to prepare something?? I got lucky and saw a comment on the Facebook page when someone asked about it but nobdoy else knew except us so most people just sang Happy Birthday or Twinkle Twinkle Little Star or My Country 'Tis of Thee (did i spell that right? i did...right?? idk) and some of us sang other stuff. I sang Someone You Loved. lol

Also, instead of singing it on stage in front of a ton of people, I got to go in a smaller room with like 1/4 of the people because not everyone wanted to audition for music but I was like bruh fine I'll do it even though I know I won't get in. Then I read some lines from the scripts. Then I was excused. I don't think there are callbacks but I'm waiting for the cast list now sksksksk.

Anyways, let's conclude this with how much I've saved.


$750.86 saved; $800 aside. $749.14 to go.

January 21, 2020

It's a year since this project was erected! (erected? interesting word choice there 2023) Just in time too because I'm pretty much halfway there.

Honestly? I don't have that much to say other than I earned another $0.25 from returning a cart at Aldi. I'm trying to grind surveys again but finals are tomorrow so... :')

Also, about One Acts, I got into an acting part and a singing part. Not bad for my first showcase huh

That's...it, really. I'm looking for new music too to fuel my second music boom. The music boomers from last year are gettin kinda salty with new boomers :')

$751.11 saved; $800 aside. $748.89 to go.

February 2020

February 1, 2020

Happy February. Also happy 2 years since I got braces on. 2018 was 2 years ago? damn :’)

Anyways, I was looking through some of my old stuff and I found a box where I tried to collect quarters from all 50 states. I’m only missing 3-ish and then I’ll complete it (this doesn’t include U.S. territories or commonwealths or landmark, except D.C.). I also collected a bunch of landmark quarters but didn’t officially count them as part of my collection, sorta like how neutral votes don’t count towards the final vote on the AJW. Somehow I also had a dollar coin and a half-dollar coin in there.

Here’s what I’ve decided: I don’t need the “landmark” coins. I don’t want them. I’m putting them in my cash box as money for the project. For my 50 states collection, all I’ll be collecting is the 50 states, D.C., a normal quarter, and the 1976 “centennial” version of the quarter (at least I THINK it’s the centennial version of it...). All I need is 3 of the states and the normal quarter, and I’m done. Once I’m done, I‘ll turn those into money too; I just want to be able to say that I’ve collected all 50 states as well as D.C. and the other two.

I have 22 landmark quarters. If I add the half-dollar and dollar coins to that amount, together they make exactly $7.00 if I’m not wrong. (i need to start using sig figs/digs hahah don’t i?)

Also, in the same collection, I randomly found $4.15 CAD (Canadian dollars). I’m assuming it’s leftover from when my family visited Canada a few years back, but according to Google, it’s $3.14 USD. I might see if I can get that converted.

Quiz Bowl—we had a meet on Thursday night and my team won 3-1!! That means my mom owes (haha not really) me... I don’t remember how much but I’m sure I mentioned it somewhere back. I’ll have to check, but for the time being, I’ll keep in mind that there’s some money there.

haha we had a rehearsal for one acts on monday but i didn’t see that my director alex (not his real name) sent me a facebook message telling me about it so i missed it and now he’s going to cry if i don’t have my lines memorized the following monday :’)

$758.11 saved; $800 aside. $741.89 to go.

February 2, 2020

Okay, so, I went and managed to sell off a bunch of my old books on eBay and just shipped them out today - The Illuminati, the two old National Geographic issues (FINALLY LOLOL), The Princess and the Unicorn, And We Stay, and a couple more I don't remember but I sold them for $2.00-$4.00 each and managed to get $12.00. WOO

Actually even though eBay says my total was exactly $12.00, they only gave me $11.33 because of some kind of processing fee or whatever so... :/ but it's better than nothing!

I also have a pending payment from someone else on eBay who bought a bunch of other books (Meridian, Dizzy Fantastic and the Flying Bicycle, Arclight, etc.) which totaled up to $19.87 (i think?? idrc if it's wrong though because read on) and of COURSE eBay didn't give me the full total. For some reason PayPal says $19.08 is pending and has like a whole ass month left for transfer so I'm going to wait until I actually get it to count it in.

Anyways like I said in my last entry, Alex is going to cry tomorrow if I don't memorize my lines for One Acts so bye I need to study and sleep.

$769.44 saved; $800 aside. $730.56 to go.

February 5, 2020

I just reread this USUK fanbook/doujinshi and I’m crying again. :’)

Anyways, I sold off a bunch of other stuff and I have another pending payment of $19.03, but I got another payment of $9.39 - no payment. So I have about $38.06 that’s pending (I still don’t know why, though) and another +$9.39.

Also, since we won our last quiz bowl meet (my team did, at least), that’s like $5.00 or something but I still haven’t checked back on my old entries so idrk.

Here’s the thing about One Acts: we don’t have rehearsal every day like it was with Bye Bye Birdie and Frozen Jr. Instead, we have a few rehearsals every few days until our shows on the 27th or 28th or somewhere around that. I’m gonna estimate that the most I can earn from the rehearsals, taking both the show and song, to about $20, but no more. As for the shows, $10.00 (I’m assuming we’d do 1 performance for each and, since I’m in two, that’s $5.00 for each show).

Also, I just sold some unopened Carlos Santanta CD (I don’t even know where I got it from, tbh) for $9.50 (excluding shipping costs) and I’m waiting for the buyer to pay. Yay, quick money is coming in soon. :D

Until next time. Honors English is killing me. No, Mrs. Carriedo, I am not going to write a huge ass essay about how the author buried a super deep meaning into that one sentence in the middle of the paragraph because no, the author did not intentionally put that “meaning” into there so your argument that it’s true is stupid. But I’ll do it anyway for the sake of AP Lang&Comp next year. (no flex intended.)

(P.S. exactly one year ago today, my bus almost crashed and we got stuck because the roads were too slippery and we almost died but I’m still here, yeet)

$778.83 saved; $800 aside. $721.17 to go.

February 18, 2020

I've been gaining a bunch of money recently that I've kinda forgotten how much I've earned, so I'm just going to recount everything.

Here's what I think I remember I earned recently: $1.00 in Chinese New Year money, $10.00 I didn't spend during a Quiz Bowl meet last weekend (2 of our school's 4 teams qualified for nationals, I wasn't in one of those teams though lol), and I bought something for $20.00 and sold it for $24.00-ish so that's like a $3.90 profit idk and more.

As of now, I have $207.43 in PayPal (funds are no longer on hold), $520.04 in my bank account, $126.65 in cash ($9.65 of which is coins). I'm pretty sure I don't have money stored anywhere else...I can't think of any other place I'd store money. So all that adds up to $854.12. Not bad, really.

So I'm just gonna talk about what I'm planning right now.

One Act Shows: the most I'll earn from this is around $20, probably, maybe $25, not sure.

iPoll: The deal with iPoll here is that I'm not getting surveys recently. I'll try to fetch up $100.00 by the end of 2020 but with the rate of surveys I'm getting, I'm not sure I'll be able to. $0.50 a day will get me there, though.

Qmee: Same with iPoll, I'll shoot for $0.50 a day.

MyPoints: If I can get 1,000 points a week, I'll have enough to buy two $100.00 e-gift cards for PayPal (each one is exactly 15,880 points) and maybe one $50.00 gift card (exactly 7,940 points) and one $25.00 gift card (exactly 3,970 points) by the end of 2020. If I'm lucky, I could get three $100 gift cards, but considering the time I have left in 2020 I'm gonna say no and just shoot for the $275.00, maybe just $225.00 if possible.

Survey Junkie: I'm hoping to get $20.00 out of it by the end of 2020 like I did in 2019, but I'm gonna have to really keep up with the stuff they send me in emails.

Make Money: I have like 5,000 points there right now which is enough for $5.00 through PayPal, but I'm gonna keep going until like 50,000 points so I can get $50.00. Works for me, I just need to play some dumb casino games every hour.

Fansigning: I might make a post pressing for commissions and also sell up some brushes on Etsy (I have a few-ish ideas like clouds n stuff) and see if I can rack up some stuff. Shooting for $100.00, probably not gonna get that much though, but it doesn't really matter ig, setting a goal keeps me motivated.

For my birthday on May 29th, I'm going to ask for money, no doubt about it.

That's all I've got for now. Auditions for the spring musical are on March 3rd. If I get in...well, you know what that means, more rehearsals and more money. Also, my school is performing our 2019 fall musical Bye Bye Birdie again in June for some showcase or whatever. I can't wait to do it again. :') More reharsals, more money :D

Also, expect that this project page won't be updated for a while, perhaps not until late March or April, because I've got some busy things going on. I promise I'll keep track of my progress outside of this page, though. Not sure if I'll update it for the older days or just pile it onto one entry but we'll see.

$854.12 saved; $1,000.00 aside. $645.88 to go.

March 2020

March 16, 2020


Right now I'm on spring break and school's shut until the 30th thanks to COVID-19 so I've got some time to kill.

Anyways, I applied for Rev as a captioner a while back, which is a transcription/captioning website. (Registered under my mom's name btw.) They said I got accepted but are waiting to let me get onboard. According to the internet, they usually pay $50ish a week. Assuming I'm boarded in mid-April, I could earn around $1,600 or so by the end of 2020

Ha. $1,600. Shut the hell up. That doesn't sound at all realistic. $1,000 seems more like it.

Anyways, as for the spring play, I didn't get in this time cause of the small cast room, but I'm thinking of joining tech; I've always wanted to, as well. That's proving that the whole thing isn't cancelled because of the coronavirus. I'm too lazy to calculate the whole tech money, and I don't have enough info anyways, so that'll have to wait.

Now let's see how much money I earned from the winter 2020 showcase:

$5.00 for the audition, $0.50 for every hour of rehearsal, $5.00 for every show. I auditioned for two things so that's $10.00. Most rehearsals are about 3 hours long, so $1.50 for every rehearsal. We had about 18 rehearsals, so that's another $26.00. I was in all four shows, so that's another $20.00. In total, that's $56.00 from the showcase. WOO

I recently sold a bunch of stuff on eBay again, and also eBay just took like $20 from me for some reason sooo 🙄🙄🙄 I literally don't know how much money I have right now, so that's that. When the payments are finished I'll update it all.

Speaking of Tier 1; haha, we didn't pass this time. No orchestra hall, rip. But I had about $3 left over from buying lunch so...

I was going to go to a quiz bowl meet, but it was "indefinitely postponed" due to the coronavirus. Eep.

Also, I'm obsessed with Avril Lavigne's album Head Above Water. If you're into rock or pop music and need some encouragement this is for you. I'm a warrior and it's all in me. I'm going to meet Alvaro if it's the last thing I do.

Until next time.

Idk saved; $1,200.00 aside. 700-600ish to go.

March 25, 2020

Some things are gonna have to be changed.

Thanks to the coronavirus, our school's closed until May 4th. That means the spring play is "indefinitely postponed". If the virus is still bad until June, then that means no spotlight Bye Bye Birdie either. I sincerely hope it won't drag on until fall 2020 cause that's when the other musicals start.

Also, I've kinda given up on surveys, really. iPoll gives me nothing, Qmee earns me nothing. MyPoints is doing okayish; I'll just have to keep pushing the surveys there. I think I'll just do a few surveys a week and that's the cap for all three of them.

Gosh, this virus is driving us all insane.

I still haven't been onboarded for Rev, but they're sending me updates every Wednesday/Friday to let me know if I am. It's taking a lot longer because of the virus and this is kinda the only gig that certain people can have.

Also, this virus is probably going to be a pandemic until 2021. If things calm down by that year, then the plan to see Alvaro then is still on board. If not, we'll have to look to a different year, perhaps 2022 or 2023.

Idk saved; $1,200.00 aside. $700-600ish to go.

March 29, 2020


Idk saved; $1,200.00 aside. $700-600ish to go.

April 2020

April 7, 2020

Eyy I got approved as a captioner on Rev! $150 a month, here I comee~~

Anyways if I can caption one ten-minute video every day for 25 days, that's about $125 because most 10-minute videos pay off as $5. Don't think I'll earn that much though cause I've just started and I'm an idiot at this. But if I can earn like $100 a month for the rest of 2020, that's a good $900. $125 a month and that's $1,125. $150 a month and that's $1,350. I'll just do my best, a video or so every now and then after distance learning is over. I get paid through PayPal every Monday.

(Been told that Rev isn't worth it but if I'm just a teen wanting to see my idol, it is.)

By the way, in PayPal I have a bunch of pending funds. Most won't be available under after the 14th or 15th, and one won't be available until the 28th. (shrugs) What I've been doing recently is buying stuff cheap from Instagram sellers and reselling them on eBay where people expect higher prices so they pay more, so I gain money if I sell to them.

Once the 28th passes I'll finally count up my funds because eBay's a sneaky ass bitch.

Idk saved; $1,200.00 aside. $700-600ish to go.

June 2020

June 6, 2020

(well i left this page for like 10 seconds and boom. wikia deleted everything i typed. goddamn you wikia)

Look who hasn't updated for two months. (cough 2023zhanl38)

Anyways, what I've been doing recently is selling old game accounts (not AJ). Apparently it's not explicitly against the rules for those games although the support team keeps suspending players that do this, so I'll keep doing it and hope I don't get caught.

As for it all, after counting the funds at the end of April or so I had around $850 saved up. But, with all the turmoil happening recently in the US, I've honestly not known what to do. I can't just sit there and watch shit happen to blacks and protesters in a country that claims to call itself the "land of the free", like come on, do we really have to riot just to get a few people arrested for a crime that's obvious they committed?? damn. And goodness, I've had enough of Trump. "The looting starts, the shooting starts"?? "Thugs"?? Goddamn, Obama looks like a fucking savior of God compared to our current president. I sincerely hope Trump gets booted out of office this fall. (facepalm)

So, since I can't protest (I don't trust the police on the "peaceful" shit), but I still wanted to help, I ended up donating a bunch of money (like $200+, idek anymore) to Black Lives Matter, Real Justice PAC, and Minnesota Freedom Fund. Yes, that set me back on my goal A LOT but what the hell was I supposed to do otherwise?? They need my voice, my money, and I can't just sit back and watch it all unfold and do nothing. I don't regret donating any of it and I hope it helps a protester get out of jail or helps amplify more black voices because damn I've had enough. (My mom is one of the blatant racists, not as bad as most but still racist. Not telling her I donated all of this, she'll just kick me out of the fucking house for caring about human lives smh.)

Moving on (ugh...)

My birthday was on May 29 recently, and I got $100.00 as a present. I also got $10.00 as a prize for getting better grades during distance learning and getting my GPA to a 4.0, so that's something.

In my bank account right now, I have $457.30, PayPal $64.36, cash (bills) $129.00, cash (coins) $64.36. In total, that's $673.31. Not too bad, I'll just pick up the pace with surveys. (Rev is insanely time-consuming, goddammit...)

So, I need $826.69 more to reach my goal, which isn't too difficult, I suppose, based on my new money plans. I'll round that up to $830 just for simplicity reasons.

MyPoints and Qmee are the only survey websites I'm using now. iPoll isn't giving me ANY surveys, so I've given up on that platform. I'll shoot for $100 or so on MyPoints and $60 or so on Qmee by Christmas 2020.

Rev, as said earlier, is actually really time consuming and grueling. It takes me 3+ hours to caption a 10-minute video, and it hardly even pays so much. I'll try to see if I can get one done a day but it's hard to find videos that I can actually caption, so maybe one every other day? If I can earn around $10.00 every week of the summer, that could get me somewhere by the end of 2020.

I'll keep on selling my old game accounts (won't specify which games but I can guarantee you it is NOT Animal Jam or anything related). Right now the estimated value of them all is around $300+ but this could vary depending on the buyers.

My mom also decided to give me an allowance of $5 a week if I do my chores and get up/go to sleep at the right times, so that's one more point.

  • Don't forget musical theatreeeee. I'm finally learning how to sing so maybe I'll actually land a good role. Unfortunately the spring 2020 musical was cancelled, so no money from that, but fall 2020 could bring something.

I don't think I got a 5 on the AP Human Geography test. Scores won't come until July, however, so I'll have to wait until then to see how I did. I just hope I passed this time.

In total, by 12/25/2020:

  • Allowance ($5 a week, about 30 weeks left, so $150 in total)
  • Christmas present? ($100)
  • Theatre and stuff
    • Fall 2020 ($80)
    • Winter 2020-21? ($80-$150, I could do both the children's and the competition if I'm good enough? Will just assume $100 for now)
  • MyPoints ($100)
  • Qmee ($60)
  • Rev ($10 every week of summer, about 10 weeks left, so $100 in total?)
  • Rev ($5 every non-summer week, about 16 weeks then, so $80 in total?)
  • Selling game stuff (approx $250-$350, will just assume $250 for now)

Together that's about $920 potential dollars. I'll see if I can boost some earnings just cause I know I'll slip in surveys or earnings somewhere. Should probably make a daily routine for surveys and Rev and summer class. No way I'm getting a real job this summer with the pandemic and all, but I suppose there's nothing I can do about that. I actually do want to attend some other concerts at some point so that's just my mental note to self; luckily most won't happen until 2021-22 and by then the pandemic should be over and I'll be old enough to be an easy cashier or something, so I'll just postpone the job searching until then.

Also, lately, I've been questioning, I might be a genderfluid demigirl... idk. I'll give it some time and see if I'm actually a demi or just a confused cis.

$673.31 saved. $826.69 to go.

October 2020

October 5, 2020

Yikes, I have not updated this in a while.

Anyways, I have no idea how much money I have saved, but I do know a few things:

  • I didn’t get into the fall play for my school, so screw that. I’ll try for the children’s musical though, which I should probably get into.
  • Since everything’s hybrid now, I didn’t audition for chamber orchestra, so screw that.
  • I’m participating in a study in which, if I complete all parts of, I’ll earn $110.00 USD.
  • I’m considering entering a writing contest or similar for some money prizes since that’s kinda the only thing I can do.
  • I got a 4 on the APHuG test (yayyyy!!) and my mom says she’s giving me $40.00 USD for the score.
  • I started this allowance thingy but I have no idea how much I’ve earned...
  • Still planning on asking for money this Christmas.
  • No job this summer for obvious reasons.
  • No idea if I’ll still do Rev cause of how time consuming it is.


Alvaro has announced plans for a 2021 tour. However, most of those shows are just reruns of what would have been the 2020 shows, so I have no idea if there are upgrades that involve meeting him or merch or whatever. I’ll discuss possibly going with my parents, but if it’s not what I’m looking for, then I’m not going. Besides, I have no idea if the pandemic is going to be over by then.

Also, haha, I had a dream about seeing Alvaro in concert (not meeting him but still) right here in Saint Paul / Minneapolis. Hahah. Wonderful. I hate when you have a dream like that and wake up from it. It fucking hurts, man. Seriously. I’m still not over that dream I had two years ago, the whole reason for this in the first place. But I’ll see him for real. I know I will... <sigh>

Idk saved; idk aside (no idea if they’re still saving for that). Idk to go.

May 2022

May 3, 2022


It's been a while, yeah? Yeah.

It probably wasn't a good thing to post this whole log on the internet, but. It's fine.

Anyways, I have some news.

Remember three years ago I was freaking out about the ACT test, and how I planned to get a 36 (perfect score) so my parents would give me a full-on trip to see Alvaro? Well, the test happened last month. I got a 34. Not a 36, but it was the score I wanted, and I half-jokingly said I wanted $1,000 as a reward.

Well, they gave it to me.


Now, I haven't, like, even really looked at the new tours that Alvaro is doing. I'll admit I've been using my money for other stuff. But $1,000 is more than enough to see him. Probably not this year--most of the shows were postponed thanks to COVID and I was busy during spring break, my planned trip time, anyway--or next year, since next year I get to deal with college (maybe that 34 will come in handy, who knows). But mayhaps I'll get a chance the years afterwards. And honestly, shifting realities is fun, too, although I don't need it lol.

So what's my money count now?

$1,124.26 in my bank account; $206.54 in PayPal; $200.65 in cash ($178.00 in bills, $22.65 in coins);

...which amounts to a total of $1,531.45. Yay. Goal reached, and I can use the spare $31.45 to buy myself a fucking journal.

That was anticlimactic, wasn't it? Yeah. Look, I love money as much as the next person, but I feel like I wasn't as obsessed with it as I was before. Again, like I said, I've been spending it on other outlets, too, not just saving. Which is fine. Keep, like, $500.00 for Alvaro when the opportunity comes, and it's all good. I don't really need to buy every single merch item he has. That's kinda dumb, ngl. And now I actually think I might have a chance at getting a real fucking job this summer. Then again, I don't even need that.

I guess the next time I update this thing will be when or if I actually meet him. Like. I had it all planned out--he was gonna tour in either 2021 or 2022 or 2023, but who the fuck was gonna tell me COVID was gonna be a thing? Yeah, nobody. So that's that. I guess post-2023 is my main option now. Visas aren't an issue anymore, and by the time the date rolls around, I'll be old enough to have my own PayPal account. Hah. Remember how pissed I was about that years ago? Please.

Anyway, I have more than 1k USD saved up, I'm almost a legal adult, I got a 34 on the ACT, COVID is still being a bitch, I have two APs this month including one tomorrow morning, I'm gonna try to get into some good college with my stats, I've learned how to hop galaxies, I got back into journaling, I'm having sexuality crises, I've basically quit FANDOM/Wikia, I can vaguely speak Spanish now, and I'm not depressed anymore.

$1,531.45 saved. Believe me, three years ago, I would have killed to get this much overnight.

Until next time.